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[Monday
September 27th, 2004] |
Friends Only, Bitches.....
♥Em
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| I Take Back Everything I Said. |
[Friday
August 20th, 2004] |
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This song decibes my emotions right now
My Eyes Burn - Matchbook Romance
My eyes burn from these tears
You'd think I'd learn over the years
Good things won't last forever
So what the hell am I suppose to do
You only wanted the things I couldn't give to you
And you had it all anyway
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
Tell me i'm wrong when I say
I can't expect you to stay forever with me
I live for that single moment
I take back everything i've said
You wore those words on your lips
As if they meant anything anyway
Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth
It seems I do more harm than good
And I don't know if it's worth me loosing sleep over this
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
Tell me I'm wrong when I say it
I can't expect you to spend forever with me
I live for that single moment
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
man...boys are impossible........how about that english hons test.....pffft.
and those scales.
and how about i'm bored and SOMEONE was supposed to CALL but he's so goddammed lazy.
::sigh::
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| "....She Woke In The Morning...She Knew That Her Life Has Passed Her By.." |
[Wednesday
August 11th, 2004] |
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Warning - Incubus |
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Jessie and Anthony Floresa's Mom passed away the day before school started...
I could NEVER imagine my mom or dad dying. It makes me really think you know? How many times have i yelled out i fucking hate my parents......i wonder how many times Jessie and Anthony said it......and i wonder if thier mom knew it wasn't true. To wake up one morning and find out ur mom or dad got hit by a car or your sister killing herself has to be hard...
Just to know that one day, yes my parents will die, maybe today,tommorrow,the day after, a month from now, a couple years from now....i will never be ready for that day.
Never.
I thanked God in the car while i was riding to the reception at Jessie's house, that my parents are both here with me and they are healthy. But it bothers me to know they could die from anything.
I wonder how things would be like if i died.
If i died, what would people say at my funeral?
Oh she was a bitch, and she was the worst person i was ever involved with.....
or
Man, i'm gonna miss that girl becuz she really knew how to live life.
i prefer the second one. But yes.....all that aside.... School is awesome thus far, People are great, Classes, Teachers are great. Band is going well. I'm looking forward to this year.
Em.
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| Warped Tour!!!!!!! |
[Sunday
August 1st, 2004] |
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Number One Fan C.d |
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MAN I HAD A FUCKING BLAST!!!!!
GOD, anyone who did not go should have becuz it was the best thing u could ever like experience.
Ruben and I got there at 8:10 and stood in a not so long line thinking we were gonna be like one of the first to get in..... but we were sadly mistaken. Nicky and Dawn got there after like 2 hours. I saw Josh Merrell,Robert,Mylinda,Andrea,Caryn,Chris,people from work and loads of people i haven't seen in a awhile.
The best performances were Yellowcard and All American Rejects. AAF was soooo great and the lead singer was soooo hot.
Ditto Yellowcard. I had a blast singing and i dont think i can call commands really loud or i will crack my voice, becuz during Yellowcard i sang all their song reallllllly loud.
Then Ruben,Nicky and Dawn left me and i was lost and alone for 2 hours and i was like having a hard time breathing and it got to the point were this guy gave me his inhaler.
The they found me (after a show) and i was pissed off.
But things got better when me and ruben sat and discussed ways to get to see Yellowcard in the VIP tent.
Then we saw Matchbook Romance,Taking Back Sunday,From Autumn to Ashes, Motion City Soundtrack and Coheed.
overall it was grade A fun in the sun. with crowdsurfers that kick ur head.
god.
Leadership lock-in was also a blast.
Highlights included
+Becky giggly and asked questions when she was tired and sleepy
+Me farting in my sleep
+Ruben The Grouch
+Karoake
+Big Booty
+Mr Adam's Animal game
MEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW.
( Are You In? Or Are You Out? )
WARPED TOUR PICTURES ARE COMING VERY SOOOOOOOOON!
oh and Thanks Aimee for NOT getting me backstage.
god. THAT always happens to me.
Em.
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| Don't Fuck With Me, Fellas. |
[Thursday
July 29th, 2004] |
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I Am // Further Seems Forever |
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Well today was interesting
i went to band camp and i had to leave and get Nicky's shit becuz shes lazy. i had to lie and say i was her sister. Then they saw that on her i.d she was white. and i told her we are stepsistewrs and they gave me her crap.
i saw colin.and chris. and lovely lisa.
My squad is the best, we gotz the Nestor Twins...betta represent, bitches!!!!!!
ummmmmm leaderhip lockin tommorrow, pictures to come, and warped tour.
AHHHHHH! EVERY1 AND THIER MOM IS IN 1ST MOD ENGLISH.
damn.
( Here's lookin' at you,kid )
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| Summer Band ...Day 1. |
[Wednesday
July 28th, 2004] |
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S-club // S-club 7 |
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Schedule:
1 period - English Honors 3 - Adkins
2 period - Geometry - Patten
3 period - AP American History - Mowbray
4 period - ASL - Silvestris
5 period - Chem 1 Hons - Clark
6 period - Band - Rose
yay.
anywho.....today was non stop chaos. i went to band camp at 8:30 we had our officer meeting, me and rube got SQUAD 1....the BEST squad ever.....better then becky,jamie and caryns combined! ummmmmmmm after that i went to get my schedule and got all that crap....saw KRISTINA BANDA....WHOM I LOVE....oh yeah and Danielle....haha... i saw Gaby...(i still love u lil homie)....and Ferrell. Caruso. ANTH! a whole bunch of people.
every1 has 1st period english....how grand. i went home at 4:30 and took a shower and went to work ...... Quata was a jackass today....but whatever. but i was having the shittest time but then.........MY LOVE RUBYKINS SAVED THE DAY AND BROUGHT ME A CARAMEL FRAPPICINO FROM STARBUCKS!!!!!! i love him dearly.
he brought a hot guy too.
::purrs::
but hes 23 and gay so pfffft. figures.
FIND STRAIGHT GUYS RUBEN AND HAND HIM TO ME AND HANNAH.
haha. then i got home at 10:30,watched the rest of the DNC on tv.....even though i HATE our government.
oh...leadership lockin...fun times on friday ;)
hugs and kisses,bitches.
Em.
(note: there ain't no party like an S-club party,bitches)
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| ..You Can't Keep Running Away From Way You're Trying To Find.. |
[Tuesday
July 27th, 2004] |
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Time And Time Again // Chronic Future |
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Wow. Today i woke up at 12. thats the last time i can for like a week. I took a shower and took pictures.
woop. band camp tommorrow....im sooo ready...but not. I have work tonite.
Colin likes Megan?!?! .......im flabbergasted.
here are some pictures....enjoy.
( Welcome )
warped tour....i'm ready for ya. who else is stoked?!
Em.
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[Sunday
July 25th, 2004] |
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The Sharp Hint of New Tears//Dashboard |
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ugh.
some people, i tell you.
i have so many problems, u can take me to the hospital and leave me.
some people are annoying me.
GAH. i just want everything to be o.k.
life isn't easy.
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